Friday, October 30, 2009

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I know I don't have the right to tell you... But sometimes I miss you so bad. I miss our everyday conversations, filled with laughter and stories about our day. I miss our future plans. I miss your incredible smile, the smile that would light up my day and give me little butterflies inside. I miss the way you cared about me and the affection that you showed towards me. You made me feel like the only person in the world. But most of all, I treasure the day you told me that you liked me. You were leaving for an overseas vacation and just before you said it you told me that you had never had the courage to say this to someone before. And then you said the words, "I like you" and that was it. You had me.

I blame myself for what happened between us, but I knew this would happen eventually. I broke your heart. The one thing I was trying so hard not to do. I distanced myself from you, too afraid to let go and love you completely. I asked myself constantly, What is love? How do you know when you're in love? I don't know. I was so young and naive. But, I do know that I felt strongly for you and I stuffed it all up. All I can do now is sit back and wonder "What if?" It's been two years and I hate that I still think about you. You entered my life at such a significant time and I'm grateful for that. I just hope you know that I loved every minute spent together. Now that you're with your new girlfriend I wish you the best, I really do, because I know you would make the most amazing boyfriend anyone could ask for.

2 comments:

caitlin said...

this is so heart wrenching, I'm a complete stranger so I hope this isn't weird but you summed up how I felt 3 weeks ago when everything came undone in my relationship. thankfully we pulled through but I hope you the best and you sound like an honest and true person and I'm sure you'll find someone who will appreciate you and be with you no matter what.

ps, I love your blog, do you use twitter?

Rich Girls. said...

Aw, thank you! I appreciate your comments. Oh no, it's not weird at all... I'm so glad everything has worked out for you.

I do have a twitter, but I have absolutely no idea how to use it as yet.